2am cont. (from yesterday)

Again, sleep eludes me. Could mean a good turn for my Narcolepsy, but I regret to report that it is not. I have decided (shakily at best) to refuse to take anymore Seroquel. Seroquel, for the past few months, has been my bedtime and bipolar aid. Of late, I have upped the dosage on it and can nno longer function in the AM when I take it. I go to bed at 12am and find it hard to function until noon the next day. Yes, it evens out my emotions, but the negatives are huge: not getting up with the kids and always feeling lethargic. I'd rather have my moods swing than to always be bleh.

Unfortunately, it appears that when I go off it, I have trouble sleeping at night. I'm sure my habitual cough doesn't help, but still. Here I sit, at 2.40am, and the cough is only minor.

I just want to be normal. :(